Cause I built you a home in my heart
With rotten wood, it decayed from the start
You can't find nothing at all,
If there was nothing there all along
September coming and going and the world keeps on spinning. Day turns to night and a new day is dawning. Things change and yet they don't.
A lot have happened in the past month or so. A lot have changed. Two people who can't decide if they wanted to be in my life or not, have vanished. I rarely think about it any more, I guess it doesn't really matter. I take comfort in the quote 'some people enter your life for a reason, others just for a season'. I had a good time, for the most part and yea sometimes I miss them, but it's not so bad any more. We had our moments, and now they're gone and moving on. That's how it goes.
On another note, I met someone. Someone I realise, I like a lot more than I originally intended.
I didn't want to write about him here, because I don't feel like I can truly capture the feelings he gives me correctly. I don't feel like I can describe the things he makes me feel, and maybe that's for the better. I can only say that he's perfect.
He's perfect.
I'm not gonna say I love him just yet, but I have the feeling things are gonna be really good. I have a feeling he's the one. I have a feeling he's different. I'm in love, in a completely different way than I've ever been before. I want to buy gifts for him. I want to see him everyday after school, I want to hold his hand and just sit, staring at the night sky. I want to hold him close and feel his heartbeat, feel his warm breath on my skin. I want to be separated from him, but not for a long time, just enough to feel the sweet misery of missing him so damn much, knowing I will be able to see him again soon enough.
Hell, I can't wait to fall asleep beside him, knowing he's still there in the morning.
I think of him all the time, of his eyes, his nose, his lips, his hands, his voice, his entire being. His presence lingers and every time I take a walk in the city, I feel him there.
I can honestly say, I'm irrevocably and unconditionally in love with him.
