you

i think im the only person you havent kissed on camera
i think im the only person you were so ashamed of that you didnt want to show me to the world
perhaps you hated me, and perhaps i hated myself
you were always so ashamed of me
didnt want to kiss in public
didnt want to kiss on the trains
didnt want this didnt want that
didnt take pictures of me in my sleep, didnt post them online
didnt do the things you do with your new boyfriend
i dont know if im jealous or sad or maybe both
you have all that and heaven too, and i only have this adult grown up love
which of course, is fine its ok its perfect, i love my girlfriend to pieces
i adore her and i want to do anything for her
but i guess i sort of miss
feeling
loved